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Its been a long time I say this as if I am some famous influencer addressing to the thousand of bot followers they've just purchased, yeah 200k followers and your post have 1k likes with 40 comments off course all those followers are real and not bots off course *wink*wink*. Now that I have had my share of a roast let's get on with this, shall we?
hahaha I am kidding I have been told you don't have to take all interaction with people as a task or a quest just let things flow you don't need to be in control of everything, easier said than done and when I say I have been told I just read it on some post on reddit and currently I have had this feeling of confusion a lot like really a lot that whether is should put myself in situation that make me uncomfortable which is like all types of social interaction and I think I really should, there is no point in hiding and its better to communication thing more clearly then just repressing them. What I don't understand is none of this ever affects me at work, its like I am totally different person, no one who I've worked with will ever call me an introvert or shy or someone who doesn't know how to communicate. I think I have put myself in so many embarrassing situations at work at this point nothing scares me at all but then when doesn't this trickle down with my social life?
its very funny I have always had these thoughts come in my head and then the whole okay this is getting uncomfortable now lets distance ourselves from this but I don't want to run away I want to face this upfront, you feel me? It's fine , I'll be fine.
I am working on this a lot but unfortunately I don't have a timeline of when this will all come together, sometimes I make good progress and then next thing these thoughts creep in and then its hibernation time again and now I finally understand the Myth of Sisyphus but this is not a pity call or anything I am going to work on this and I will do better. One day we will get there, I have high hopes on myself.
poooof I just had to get this out, feels very nice now :)
I have funnily enough picked up Crocheting and it is too much fun and what a great time waste it is ,just remarkable. Every time I mention this as a hobby I get asked but why do this out of all the things out there hahahaha its funny story so gather around I will tell you.
I once went to the passport office for renewal of my passport and I saw this elderly lady just sitting there in a corner waiting for her name to be called with a metal thingy and a ball of yarn. I was instantly amazed at how she was just creating cloth out of just thread like a child looking at ice-cream. She then saw me starring and god bless her because she called me and told me 'you see its that simple' while she did like 10 motion in 1 second and completed one row and all I asked her was so all you need is this metal thing and thread and she said 'yes', then I just ordered the crocheting set and then tried to through some tutorials but man it was difficult I didn't know what to do and the problem is when there are so many tutorials on YouTube you keep doubting yourself like if you are looking at the right tutorial or not anyways no progress is being made. 3 months I didn't even look at the kit because those tutorials literally gave me trauma and I felt stupid for not understanding some basic things but then I thought okay I mean lets just go through comments of the videos and see if a lot of positive comments are present means the tutorial is worth watching and learning. While I went through these comments I realized a lot of people saying I leant this as a child, my grandmother thought this to me or someone mentioned they have been doing it since they were 10 because some neighbor taught them and someone mentioned that it was thought to them by their mother who learnt it from their mother and it was like a generational thing and then it just struck me you know when people have all the money in the world they then look to go after power like that is the next thing they chase and when lets say they are given this power or somehow able to use it their only aim is to do things so that people remember them when they are gone - LEGACY but then these are billionaire and they will somehow create legacy but what about someone like a commoner what is his legacy what does he leave behind when he is finally ready to leave the world, I feel and this is debatable its how you will be remembered is what makes Legacy for you like in that comment section someone wrote and remembered their loved one who taught them a skill that will last for a lifetime and maybe will be passed on for generations to come, if this is not beautiful I don't know what is.
Yeah okay I know one of you reading will say Legacy is not this there is a famous painter from Austria who has had a Legacy for all the wrong done or rather the most horrible things done to mankind, as I have said its debatable!
Hence I just pulled up my sleeves and just got locked in to learn this as this will be my Legacy for years to come, man come on this sounds beautiful and majestic. Don't even deny this!
The good thing about this hobby is it helps a lot to develop patience and if you keep enough patience the end result is always rewarding as it something that can be used as a keepsakes. I will go a step ahead and say this is better than video games and this me saying this because videos games have a lot of this patience development especially if you are playing any RPGs(in FPS you tend to lose patience I understand, say no to gun violence kids!!) but the rewards are non tangible unlike this.
Just lets maintain 2 minutes silence for the injured soldiers who helps me make a lot of this stuff.
Thank you, your Pin drop silence was highly appreciated.
(I am extremely sorry but when the opportunity is there for a pun, you always go for it ).
Also there is no way I am not posting about this here
WE WON THE WORLD CUP LETSSSSSS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
It took what 10 years hahahahaha 10 painful years for this moment ufff unbelievable
Finally got to see these two together happy and content, they truly deserved it sometimes its like one of those quotes like if you give enough respect for the things you do it will respect you back
One with completing cricket, one with the redemption and one who deserves everything and has my heart always!!
This is a bit sad now that we were whitewashed at home after 12 years of test dominance but lets not bring that up because I will cry and for now I don't want to.
BUT ......... WE WON A TEST AT PERTH !!!!!! AT PERTH !!!!! ONCE AGAIN !!!! AT PERTH
Man Oh Man what a match it was 3 days of pure dominance, it has everything
A BUMRAH MASTERCLASS
JAISWAL MADNESS
KL RAHUL THE BEST BACKFOOT PLAYER IN THE COUNTRY CALMNESS
AND OFF COURSE THE RETURN OF THE KING.
Too cool way too cool!! Only missing was Shubman Gill Aesthetics but its fine, we will get to witness more of this in the future anyways
I did a bit of gardening and now we have chilies, they are edible as well which is very nice, man this also requires a lot of patience but its fun since the outcome is too rewarding.
Coming to the title of the blog I have noticed that being consistent is very difficult and painstaking sometimes but I think I am sometimes being too hard on myself to do things and maybe I just need to slow down a bit ad there is no train to catch. Consistency is good but I need to remind my self my mental health is more important, I cant be just doing things that make me uncomfortable on regular basis at the cost of my mental health but that being said Consistency does reward you a lot like its shockingly good results come out if you are determined and put enough effort in, maybe that what I need to focus on currently and not worry at the outcome. That's it just wanted to let out some of this I don't even know if any of this makes sense but lets see, we will figure out something like we always do.
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